boys.

ummmm... 

you boys that i like...

well obviously i like...

or LIKED you for a reason. 

for favorable characteristics

such as 

good looking

nice

funny

conversationally entertaining...

then of course... 

it ALWAYS seems to be the case that i DONT get liked back. 

this is a situation that i have unfortunately run into TOO MANY times.

but i try and try again... 

thinking this situation with dumb boys will NOT happen again

and AGAIN AND AGAIN i am sadly mistaken to think that this time will be any different.

i have shown interest in different BOYS... 

results:

fail

fail 

and fail.

i admit... its not all their fault. 

i am at times... 

too nice...

too available...

too willing...

too forward?

too honest?

too successful?

too forgiving?

too oblivious?

too annoying?

not enough baggage?

laugh too much?

talk too much?

some of those things are negotiable 

but ill be damned if i change who i am just so a guy would like me...

but i have been liking the WRONG guys.

thats a fact. 

but thats just bc i dont have a definite definition of what is right yet

i mean whos to say that the perceived wrong guy might be just THE ONE for me?

i dont know. but... 

i guess these situations teach me that

i should be aiming higher

also maybe to RELAX and 

not deal with these B O Y S 

hopefully one day i will find someone who will meet the expectations i have...

dawn on making the band [who is with QUE (so HOT btw)]

says that there is a chance for my prince charming to come

and that one day there will be a day when i get my happy ending... 

but really... 

how many frogs do i have to kiss?

i know im still young... but...

im getting tired and dishearten. 

r e a l l y.

♥jamie

ps. song of the day: when will it be me- yasmeen