im scared.

but excited.
ahhh
here goes another one
with potential to break my heart
but also with the the potential to fill it

i think too hard
i know i do
its because...
im scared
im excited!

i want this one to be something.
i feel it...
but that feeling scares me
what if im wrong
what if... its the same as all the rest of them
what if its worse than i feel?!

i have to go in with no expectations
but... im too excited now.
theres no coming down from this high right now

he says the sweetest things
were clicking...
these all seem legit

will it all change tom?
will it be the same?
will it be more?
will it be less?

ahhhh.

i want it to be more.
but i have to expect... nothing.
what if its nothing.
i hope its something.

i hope its not some cruel joke on me.

im hopping over my wall and going in..











oh and TONSILLITIS?!!?

REALLY?! COME ON!!
it hurts
it sucks

what 22 year old gets tonsilitis?!?!

like for real!

ugh.
and its contagious.
sorry.

♥jamie